Monday, June 30, 2008

Things have taken a turn for the worst

Last Thursday started out fine and I went through the whole day without a hitch. I fell asleep at the shop until 7:30 or so and after a while of figuring out what we wanted to eat, I scooped up Kate to put her in the car and off we were to get Lucky some dinner. I come back to the shop and the instant I get out of the car there is a gush (TMI) and all of a sudden my pants, shoes and half the pavement is covered in blood. I didn’t want to move and I certainly wasn’t going to go into the shop that way, I grabbed my phone and called Lucky to come outside right away. I was handling the situation fine until I saw Lucky’s panicked expression on his face. That made me start shaking and crying and he was saying that he would drop everything to drive me home. For some reason he thought I couldn’t drive myself home. Yes, it was like I took a bloodbath with my clothes on from the waist down but I didn’t feel any differently so Lucky grabbed me some paper towels for my seat, I got back in the car and drove Kate and I to the house. It was hard because I wanted to cry but Kate was watching me in the rearview mirror the whole time and she was starting to tear up and kept repeating “Don’t cry Mommy.” It was all I could do not to cry to that.

We got back to the house, I rushed Kate inside and got her set up with some food, I went to take a shower before I went to the ER. I thought I would gradually work my way to the hospital during this pregnancy but that didn’t work out so we were trying to find our way to the ER amidst the construction and confusion in the panic. We finally find it and then hurry up and wait for four hours. Luckily they got me checked in quickly and let me lie down on a bed (albeit on the side of the triage hallway because they didn’t have rooms available). Dan graciously came and picked up Kate and took her home for the evening. Kate had a blast playing with all of Danica’s toys and wasn’t upset at all!

Around 1:00am or so the nurses finally let us into a room and gave me morphine (morphine!) for the cramp pain along with saline solution. I finally got two ultrasounds around 1:45am, I was totally defeated and tired and didn’t watch the ultrasounds at all. Lucky was at the cafeteria eating during the one hour they were open. My report came back around 3:30am saying that there is a fetal heartbeat. Lucky and I just looked at this nurse flabbergasted that he would say there was anything left in my stomach. He then proceeded to tell me that he couldn’t give me any further details and I have to go back to my practitioner in a week for a follow-up ultrasound. So, all that time, energy, stress and money wasted for a follow-up. Aargh!

Things are about as well as they can be, I’m not holding out too much hope that anything will survive because I don’t want to set myself up for disappointment. I’m trying to make a doctor’s appointment but of course this is the week that our minutes are used and we have to wait for the next cycle to begin making things extremely difficult… Another aargh! Right now I’m supposed to take it easy, (the person I spoke with on the phone today said to make sure my pelvis is relaxed….) and we’ll see how it goes. Well, here goes….

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

It's Even More Official

So the nurse practitioner from my dr's office called and left a message before Lucky and I went to Vegas. I never called her back until yesterday. She had nothing really to tell me aside from the news that yes, I am indeed pregnant, and I should make another appointment. Well, that's freakin' great because I've been sick up a storm and had to get up to pee in the middle of the night for the last week. I better be pregnant or something would really be wrong with me!

I love being pregnant but could go without the sickness, having to get up in the middle of the night to pee or back pain. That and I want to get round so I have something to lay my hands on. Besides my tummy of course. :)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Doctor Doctor

So I went to the doctor last Thursday and he confirmed exactly what I have been telling people: I was pregnant and about five weeks along. I was kind of nervous because the conversation the night before and the morning of was all about miscarriages, in utero tumors, false positives, etc. Everything went off without a hitch however and this doctor made me feel relieved. He has probably the best bedside manner I have ever come in contact with aside from my doctor in Post Falls. The crappy part is this new guy doesn't deliver babies. Sucky! This is exactly why I went to him in the first place. He told me that no one in the office delivers anymore and I'm going to have to go elsewhere. My excitement went down a bit when he told me that because I have no idea where to go. Dr. gave me some suggestions but I hate that whole not-knowing thing. The cool thing is our new intern at work told me that her mom is a pediatrician at Valley (where I will be giving birth) and she had some suggestions for delivery doctors as well. All this put me at ease because I will potentially go to her for the new baby checkups.

As for the rest of me, I have morning sickness all day and all night. I've been waking up in the middle of the night sick to my stomach. No vomiting but really close to that. I have to have something in my stomach all the time which is hard for me because I don't eat very often. Worse now that during my first pregnancy. I'm going to have to change a lot this time, more than last because I feel that things have changed so much between now and then that it is harder this time around. I'm sure it will be fine. We are all really excited but I'm counting down the days until the first trimester is over and this sickness will be gone. 10 weeks.....9 weeks.....8 weeks.....

Monday, June 9, 2008

Yep, it's Official

Funny thing about knowing: you're right half the time. After a false alarm about a month ago, I am now officially knocked up. Although I wasn’t feeling well the previous couple of days, I knew something extra was in my tummy when I was lying on my stomach in the pillow meeting room and it felt like there was a hard mound in my uterus. After speaking with Lucky during lunch last Thursday, June 5th, he said I should check so before I went to Kaz’s house for a BBQ I stopped over at Rite Aid and picked up a pregnancy test. I didn’t know what to expect and I didn’t know how I was going to take this test with tons of people in the house but I had to try.

After picking up Kate and finding our way up to the house, Kate became distracted with Kaz’s son and his toys and allowed me to make my way to the bathroom. Of course it had to be on the other side of the wall from the party. There were maybe 10-15 people having a good time while I’m peeing on a stick. The test said to wait three minutes for a result but I had to wait no more than one before I had my answer: pregnant. I actually laughed out loud for a second before trying to figure out what to do. Being pregnant was not actually a surprise as Lucky and I have been trying for some time, but being pregnant was a surprise. It’s one of those things that you think you’re prepared for but it doesn’t hit you until it actually happens.

I knew that I had to tell Lucky first but I didn’t want to tell him over the phone and I wanted him to know before all of my coworkers. I figured I would tell him after the Erykah Badu concert when we were alone because I knew if even one of my coworkers overheard us everyone would know before the next morning. My brother Scott was at our house when I got home so I didn’t have a chance to tell Lucky before I passed out in bed-crap. I didn’t know what to do as I didn’t want to tell him while he was sleeping the next morning so I decided to put the pregnancy stick on the dashboard of the rodeo. A few hours later he calls and we talk for a few moments before I can hear him get into the car asking “What’s this?” before going “OH MY GOD!” Then silence. I wait for a few seconds before he asks if I’m pregnant and then of course we go into the whole “how far along?” schpeel. I kind of had to talk in code because everyone at work could hear my phone call and everyone listens to phone calls but I didn’t want everyone to know yet so I’m sure my convo sounded weird to everyone at the office with “don’t tell anyone….yes….no…..I’ll talk to you later about it.”

Friday night I called my entire family to make sure they heard about it from us instead of MySpace or some random person and of course Lucky had to tell everyone at the shop first. I changed my MySpace name to Mommy x2 and Lucky changed his status to announce a new baby and it has snowballed from there. I have a dr appointment Thursday so until then I think I’m about four weeks along but that can change at any time. We’ll see how it goes….

At least Kate and Lucky are as excited as I am….